Behind The Facade

I Wither

2009-10-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Let it out, let it out
Feel the empty space
So insecure find the words and let it out
Staring down, staring down
Nothing comes to mind
Find the place turn the water into wine
But I feel I'm getting nowhere
And I'll never see the end

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in, and everything is clear
I breakdown, and let the story guide me

Turn it on,Turn it on
Let the feelings flow
Close your eyes see the ones you used to know
Open up, open up
Don't struggle to relate
Lure it out help the memory escape
Still transparantness consumes me
And I feel like giving up

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in, and everything is clear
I breakdown, and let the story guide me
I wither And give myself away
Light reflections on the cage
The worlds want to create

I drown in hesitation
My words come crashing down
And all my best creations
Burning to the ground
The final staring over
Leaves me paralyzed
Tear it out again
Another one that got away

I wither and render myself helpless
I give in, and everything is clear

by: Donzoix

The Border Line

2009-05-11T22:57:00.003+08:00

Insecurity. Betrayal.

A veil in front of my eyes.

I take two steps back,

maybe a third or fourth.

Deceives. Lies.

I pile up on my armour.

A never ending process,

Hence i build my wall in front of me.

Denial. Trauma.

The invisible boundary present.

Creating my personal radius,

I keep myself back and shut.

Sometimes

2009-04-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like running away;
Sometimes i want my night to turn to day.

Sometimes I just want an extra ride on the carousel;
Sometimes I need to get outta my living hell.

Sometimes I really miss being a little girl;
Sometimes I'm forced to face this cruel world.

Sometimes everyone just seems so strange;
Sometimes I realize the world's in change.

Sometimes i really ought to change my point of view;
Sometimes i hold back from screaming "STFU".

Sometimes it cuts you like a knife;
Most of the time you know its just life.

by: Que

Confused

2009-01-24T00:53:00.003+08:00

My knees start to shake,
When you're in sight.
My mind is filled with wonder,
My heart with fright.

When will this feeling stop?
When did it start?
How can I listen to my mind,
Without breaking my heart?

I'm so confused,
What should I do?
I can't think of anything,
Except you.

Should I ignore you?
Or just give it time?
I can't think straight,
My heart controls my mind.

by: Anonymous

Sorry

2009-01-05T13:17:00.006+08:00

Since then i was always there for you
Its something i always thought you knew

Through time and time i had your back
I thought you knew it was a fact

It came a day you made a decision
That made me question your very reason

The hurts and pains i hear you cry
Yet once again you gave it another try

Most of those times i had your back
But that last time, i thought we had a pact

Its happening again, i know it is
Im sorry but i cant bare seeing you like this

No reasons i could think of for you to decide it
When im sure you know its just history gonna repeat

I gave you my words as a friend
But you just said i didnt understand

Im not in your shoes, i dunno how it feels
Maybe i should just shut up and keep my mouth sealed

For whatever i say doesnt mean a thing
So why dont you just continue you little fling

Im giving up, im just gonna let it go
I never thought you'd ever stoop so low

The day will come, soon you'll realize
That once again you fell for his stupid lies

When that happens i promise ill be by your side
In me you'll be able to confide

But now i think its just not fair
So im sorry but i really cant be there.

by: Que

Masquerade's over but the front's still on

2008-10-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

I saw the distance in your eyes
Knew you didnt feel the hurt i felt inside
Your smile, your hugs, your kisses, your touch
I doubt they even really meant that much
The way you flirt you're such a tease
Hoped you'd have thought of me at least
But you didnt when you held her that night
I looked past that with all my courage and might
What i saw was all fake, just a front for me to see
Masquerade's over, guess we were never meant to be.

By: Que

Teenage Confusion

2008-10-10T22:52:00.002+08:00

Seventeen years… and I still don’t know
Who am I? I never let me grow
I hide from the world
Life is sick and cruel
Am I playing dumb
Or am I truly numb?
Of feelings I am devoid
My perfect world shattered, destroyed
I live my life, acting through a veil
How can you know me, for I am not real
I seem secure and happy on the outside
Of course who’s to know what goes on inside?
I’ve learnt to live as a living lie
No one knows this, but me, myself and I
In a great strong armor, I face the world
But look inside, I’m just a fragile girl
I only exist, I am not living,
I just portray myself, I am just BEING.

by: Elaine

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (230907)

Dad

2008-10-07T22:38:00.004+08:00

I lost you when i was a little girl,
You never were a part of my world.
Now years have passed you're here again,
Though none of my memories with you remain.
I gave it a shot to start anew,
But all i see's a stranger staring back in you.
Days were spent, just you and I,
But I've come to see you just refuse to try.
To patch the gap throughout the years that's formed,
I'm sorry to say that your daughter has gone.
You screwed up so bad you made it turn to hate,
You lost her the day she walked out of your gate.

by: Que

10.48am

2008-10-04T04:52:00.004+08:00

My heart is in pain
Im stabbed in the chest;
I cant do much
But wish all the best.

My heart is in pain
The tears are rolling down;
I cant help it
If my face wears a frown.

My heart is in pain
As i begged for a chance;
You walked right by me
Without a second glance.

My heart is in pain
I had to let you go;
I asked if you still loved me
And you just said 'no'.

My heart is in pain
It still is in pain;
Though you threw my love away
It'll never be in vain.

by: Que

KeLsy

2008-10-04T04:50:00.002+08:00

If only you knew
How much you mean to me
Then we could show our love
For all the world to see
How we laughed and talked and got along
And how we used to sing our favourite song
But things have changed i'm far from you
The hurt and pain cant you feel it too?
I miss our smiles our hugs our kisses
The only thing now is that my heart is in pieces
I need a signal, an answer, maybe a sign
To know once and for all
If you'll ever still be mine.

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (021008)

My 10 Sticks

2008-10-04T04:48:00.001+08:00

Cigarette 1.
I thought of when we first got together. Our laughs and those kisses.
Cigarette 2.
I thought of when you first came to my house. We enjoyed each other's presence.
Cigerette 3.
I thoutght of when you were by my side. Our heart to hearts.
Cigarette 4.
I thought of the first time you said those 3 words. I said them back to you too.
Cigarette 5.
I thought of our minor fights and arguements. We got through them and each said sorry.
Cigarette 6.
I thought of how you've changed. You didnt show you cared as much.
Cigarette 7.
I thought of the distance. I cried tilli fell sick.
Cigarette 8.
I thought of yesterday. You completely ignored me.
Cigarette 9.
I thought of how much I loved you. Wondered if you loved me too.
Cigarette 10.
I thought of how i used to cut myself. I cant stand the hurt and pain.

...Oh f*ck. I ran outta cigarettes.

...and you're gone...

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (290908)

You (Pt.2)

2008-10-04T04:46:00.002+08:00

YOU

...made this wreck of me ( i started cutting myself )

...got me drunk with your words ( i believed your every lie )

...drugged my mind with the image of you ( i was haunted by your face )

...caused all the blood around me ( i kept bleeding from within )

You.
Buried me.
Alive.

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (180808)

You

2008-10-04T04:44:00.001+08:00

Our lives are moving on
But tear streaks are still left dried on my face
Is it really so hard?
So so hard to just say a simple hello?
Or even smile or give a nod?
Apparently the past is still haunting
There's still a need for a closure to fill the space
You dont have the right to be this way
Cuz its how IM supposed to be, not you
What the hell do you want from me?
5 years of my life. Is it still not enough?
Either get outta my life or be in it
It just isnt fair
It never is, never was
But it isnt supposed to be this way either
My eyes are welling up again
Dont, please dont...
Im happy now
Dont make me start stumbling and fall
...Again
I dont want to... Just cant...
Dont... Not now...
Love me or hate me
Just dont play your games with me.
Please.

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (260708)

Him...

2008-10-04T04:42:00.002+08:00

He puts a smile on my face before I go to sleep
His loving touch is what makes me love him so deep;
Those hazel eyes forever in my heart engraved
His warm embrace is where i feel most safe;
His kisses on my lips sweeps me off my feet
Leaves me craving till the next time we meet;
Those crazy moments the two of us share
Really proves to me just how much he really cares...

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (220708)

Smiles or Tear-streaked faces?

2008-10-04T04:36:00.003+08:00

Distances apart
Cold and numb
Internal bleeding
Lots of changes
Lost and confused?
Its just the same different
Same recognized stranger
What's going on?
Falling, Failing
Will it last?
Time determined.

Distant, yet near
Its still there
I can feel it
Gap. Hole. Space.
Ongoing obstacles
The finish line within grasp
End.

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (080608)

Mirror

2008-10-04T04:30:00.003+08:00

Noticing them, rolling my eyes
What the hell?!?
Cocks a brow, turns away.

Wait a second...
A mirror in time.
Familiarity.

Bitch. Sluts. Cool ones.
Different now alike before,
Disgusted yet something to remember..

A smile with sad eyes,
Reminiscing but glad,
Walking away...

by: Que

*www.emogothicness.blogspot.com (180408)